80 年代之夜晚应该要禁止 '80s night should be banned.
你很尽情 You had a blast.
我没有说不好玩 I didn't say it wasn't fun,
但那十年是对时尚的罪行 but that decade was a crime against fashion.
今晚的夜店是我的心水，我的氛围 Tonight's club is my pick, my vibe.
唔，即是？ Ooh, which is?
精致女士 Sophisticated ladies.
我可以接受这个 I can work with that.
肖恩？ 嗯？ - Shaun? - Hmm?
你确定你不觉得被抛弃了吗？ Sure you don't feel left out?
我利用时间研究侵入性较小的 I use the time to study less invasive
肠切除技术 bowel resection techniques.
请在 11:30 之前到家 Please be home by 11:30.
他对你实施宵禁？ He's got you on a curfew?
性爱时间表 我们的窗口在午夜结束 Sex schedule. Our window ends at midnight.
这就像我睡在砾石上 It's like I slept on gravel.
嗯，这就解释了你的鼾声 Well, that explains your snoring.
你的床垫应该被烧毁 Your mattress should be burned.
是时候结束熬夜了 It's time to end the sleepovers
并让你放弃单身公寓 and for you to ditch the bachelor pad.
你要我搬进你家？ You asking me to move into your place?
我要求你搬到一个新的地方... I'm asking you to move into a new place...
与我一起 With me.
打架后没有中立区可逃跑 No neutral zone to run to after a fight.
化妆是最好的部分 Making up's the best part.
好吧，看看也不会坏 Well, it can't hurt to look.
这是特伦特，他的母亲，嘉莉 This is Trent, his mother, Carrie.
左手食指有严重感染迹象 Signs of severe infection on his left index finger.
我要预约 CT I'm ordering a CT.
缝合线不一致且粗糙 Sutures are inconsistent and crude.
这是一个小升级 It's a minor upgrade.
我在我的手指上安装了一块磁铁 I installed a magnet in my finger.
你拿叉子有困难吗？ Were you having trouble holding forks?
是人体艺术 It's body art.
是的，他 17 岁，对常识免疫 Yeah, he's 17, immune to common sense.
艺术似乎是一个糟糕的描述 Art seems like a poor descriptor
鉴于感染的丑陋 given the ugliness of the infection.
更合适的术语是「生物黑客」 The more appropriate term is "bio hacking."
我在上面涂了抗生素软膏 然后用布洛芬消肿 I put Neosporin on it and took ibuprofen for the swelling.
这以前有效的 That's worked before.
以前？ Before?
给他们看 Show them.
第五季 第十二集
良 医
双语/调轴/Subhd：James丶xz 翻译：sunnyyylai
你想见我？ You wanted to see me?
格拉斯曼医生，这是凯拉·奎恩 Dr. Glassman, this is Kayla Quinn.
她被诊断出患有重度抑郁症 She's been diagnosed with major depressive disorder
以及慢性神经性疼痛 as well as chronic neuropathic pain
六年前颈部受伤 from a neck injury six years ago.
痛苦和沮丧是最好的... The pain and depression are besties,
一起旅行的不速之客 uninvited guests that travel together,
让我不能工作，不能起床 make it so I can't work, can't get out of bed,
甚至无法思考 can't even think.
这就是为什么我想在他们下次来访之前这样做 That's why I'd like to do this before their next visit.
前扣带切开术似乎... An anterior cingulotomy seems like the...
打扰一下 Excuse me.
她是个聪明、迷人 She is a smart, charming
成功的女人，她的生活... successful woman whose life...
不错的伏击 Nice ambush.
她接受了十多年的治疗 She's had over a decade of therapy,
五类抗抑郁药 five classes of anti-depressants,
和非侵入性神经调节 and non-invasive neuro-modulation,
包括 CES 和全面的 ECT including C.E.S. and full-on E.C.T.
她渴望真正的解决 She's desperate for real relief
从她的痛苦和抑郁中 from her pain and depression,
她很清楚这些风险 and she's well aware of the risks.
给我一份完整的医疗和心理史 Get me a complete medical and psychological history
和几个住院医生 and a couple of residents.
我们只是会谈论一下 We're just gonna talk about it.
不知道谁更苦 Not sure who's struggling more,
不知所措，超级挑剔的妈妈 the overwhelmed, super-critical mom
或悲伤，自残的青少年 or the sad, self-harming teen.
特伦特称之为升级 Trent called it an upgrade.
他不是要自残，而是要自我提升 He's not trying to self-harm, he is trying to self-improve.
嗯，不管用什么术语 Well, whatever the terminology,
他用一把 X-Acto 刀切开了自己的手指 he cut into his finger with an X-ACTO knife.
好的 他的技术很落后 Okay. His technique was primitive,
但考虑到他缺乏正规训练 but considering he lacks formal training
而且只用了一只手，我仍是蛮佩服 and used only one hand, I am impressed.
不要这样 Don't be.
骨边缘侵蚀 Bony marginal erosion.
如果感染扩散，他可能会失去那根手指 If the infection spreads, he could lose that finger.
而这只是「头盘」 For starters.
它相当于现代的脑叶切除术 It's the modern equivalent of a lobotomy.
「现代」是关键词 "Modern" being the operative word.
我们会将病变烧入一个关键的大脑中心 We'd be burning lesions into a key brain center.
这可能会改变她的性格 That could alter her personality,
损害认知功能... impair cognitive function...
她的抑郁症和反复发作的急性疼痛 Her depression and reoccurring acute pain
已经如此影响了 are already doing that.
扣带切开术对 67% Cingulotomies are effective in 67% of patients
有凯拉症状的患者有效 with Kayla's symptoms.
有 20% 的机率产生不良反应 With a 20% chance of adverse effects,
例如失去创造力，这可能是一件大事 like loss of creativity, it could be a big deal.
这是凯拉·奎恩 This is Kayla Quinn.
她在 18 岁时创办了自己的公司 She launched her own company at the age of 18,
制造了数以百万计的设计发带和手镯 made millions designing scrunchies and bangles.
我和她讨论过这个问题 I discussed this with her.
她的重点是生活质素 Her focus is quality of life.
现在，我敢肯定她现在也有这种感觉 Now, I'm sure she feels that way now,
但一旦完成，就无法撤消 but once it's done, it can't be undone.
有没有凯拉还未尝试过的替代方案 Are there any alternatives that Kayla hasn't tried
还是应该再试一次？ or should try again?
好的 Okay.
让我们做手术吧 Let's do the surgery.
等等，可能截肢？ Wait, possible amputation?
感染位于磁铁下方的骨头中 The infection is in the bone beneath the magnet.
早点把他带进来会更好 It would have been better to have brought him in sooner.
我是单亲妈妈 I'm a single mom.
特伦特...特伦特的父亲不在照片中 Trent... Trent's father isn't in the picture.
你确定了这一点 You made sure of that.
我去年离婚了 I got divorced last year.
特伦特和我正在调整 Trent and I were adjusting.
但后来他开始和这些白痴生物黑客一起出去玩 But then he started hanging out with these idiot biohackers.
谢谢妈妈 Thanks, Mom.
我们应该移除受感染的植入物 We should remove the infected implant
并开始使用静脉注射抗生素 and start Trent on IV antibiotics.
其他植入物呢？ What about the other implants?
你不应该把它们都拿出来吗？ Shouldn't you take them all out?
不！其他植入物没有被感染 No! The other implants aren't infected.
好的 这不是你要做的决定 Okay. This is not a decision you get to make.
一旦病人年满 16 岁，这是医院的政策 Once a patient is 16, it is hospital policy
不进行被拒绝的手术 not to perform a surgery that's been refused
除非手术在医学上是必要的 unless that surgery is medically necessary.
留在其他植入物中 Leaving in the other implants
意味着特伦特仍然面临 means Trent's still at risk for
脓毒症和脓毒症栓塞的风险 sepsis and septic emboli.
沃尔克医生是正确的 Dr. Wolke is correct.
一经征得你的同意，我们可以强制 With your consent, we can physically compel
手术切除你儿子的所有修改 the surgical removal of all your son's modifications.
祝你好运 我要出去了 Good luck. I'm outta here.
特伦特 Trent.
特伦特！ Trent!
这比追他容易多了 This is much easier than chasing him.
头架安装妥当 Head frame is secure.
伽玛刀准备就绪 Stand by with the Gamma knife.
格拉斯曼医生，请停止你正在做的事情 Dr. Glassman, please stop what you're doing.
这是贾斯汀·奎恩，凯拉的监护人 This is Justin Quinn, Kayla's conservator.
我对姐姐的治疗拥有全权 I have full authority over my sister's medical treatment,
我不会允许这个手术 and I won't allow this surgery.
凯拉每周去看她的心理医生 Kayla sees her psychiatrist weekly,
我每天都会和她一起检查 and I check in with her daily,
但显然，这不是... but clearly, this is not
在太浩湖的小屋度过周末假期 a weekend getaway at a cabin in Tahoe.
一封来自我们保险的偶然电子邮件告诉了我 A chance e-mail from our insurance tipped me off.
她从来没有这样骗过我 She's never lied to me like this.
我父母去世时我才 12 岁 I was 12 when my parents died.
我对他们的记忆似乎并不真实 My memories of them don't seem real,
只是电影的剪辑 just clips from a movie.
首先诊断出她的抑郁症的 It was our grief therapist who first
是我们的悲伤治疗师 diagnosed her depression.
我 22 岁，所以超出了我的深度 I was 22 and so out of my depth.
贾斯汀和我过去常常一起做所有事情 Justin and I used to do everything together.
是我们对抗世界 It was us against the world.
我叫他老爹 I called him Bro-dad.
她是一个如此有创造力的孩子，如此有才华 She was such a creative kid, so talented.
她只是有一个愿景，并想与它一起奔跑 She just had a vision and wanted to run with it.
谁知道发带和闪闪发光的手镯 Who knew scrunchies and glitter bangles
可能是一门生意？ could be a business?
才刚上轨道 Just took off.
十八岁，所有的钱，没有护栏 Eighteen years old, all that money and no guardrails.
她失控了 She was out of control.
每天晚上的夜店，酒，毒品... Clubs every night, the booze, the drugs...
我无法帮助她 我无法阻止她 I couldn't help her. I couldn't stop her.
在停电期间，我摔倒并伤了颈部 It was during a blackout that I fell and injured my neck.
在那之后一切都变得更糟了 Everything just got worse after that.
逮捕堆积如山，未成年饮酒，拥有，酒后驾车 The arrests piled up, underage drinking, possession, DUI.
我以为她要进监狱了 I thought she was going to prison.
法官同意了一项转移计划... The judge agreed to a diversion program...
她几乎过度滥药两次 She's nearly O.D.'d twice.
...称我对自己有危险 ...called me a danger to myself.
法官裁定她无力自理 The judge ruled she was incompetent.
让我的兄弟负责一切 Put my brother in charge of everything.
他夺走了我的生命 He took away my life.
监管机构挽救了她的生命 The conservatorship saved her life.
我要惹恼我的父母... All I needed to piss off my parents
只需要用渔网和厚重的眼线笔 were fishnets and heavy eyeliner.
你当然是哥特 Of course you were a goth.
你看过多少次《治愈》？ How many times did you see The Cure?
四次 Four.
罗伯特史密斯就像我们部落的领袖一样 Robert Smith was, like, leader of our tribe.
每个孤独的青少年都需要一个部落 Every lonely teen needs a tribe.
我很孤独，但我不是逆民 I was lonely, but I was not a rebel.
我的反抗只是诚实 My rebellion was just being honest.
我的家人更喜欢谎言 My family preferred the lie.
与此同时，特伦特正在破坏他的关系 Meanwhile Trent is damaging his relationship
与他的妈妈和他的身体 with his mom and his body.
那不是他的错 That is not his fault.
她是他的母亲 She is his mother.
妈妈们应该努力理解自己的孩子 Mothers should try to understand their children.
好主意，但青少年是蠢驴 Nice thought, but teenagers are asses.
科学证明 Scientifically proven.
他们的前额叶皮质发育不全 Their prefrontal cortex is underdeveloped,
导致过度冒险 leading to excessive risk-taking
和缺乏冲动控制 and lack of impulse control.
软组织的边缘看起来不错 Margins in the soft tissue look good,
但要注意感染 but keep an eye out for the infection.
让我们合上 Let's close.
奎恩先生 Mr. Quinn.
你姐姐的痛苦 Your sister's suffering.
和她一起坐起伏上落 It's a roller coaster with her,
好日子和坏日子 good days and bad days.
但你的解决方案，是煎掉她的一部分大脑 But your solution is to fry part of her brain.
她可能会失去她的创造力，她的个性 She could lose her creativity, her personality.
她的痛苦，她的抑郁 Her pain, her depression.
可能是 那些其他的医生让我经历了 Maybe. Those other doctors ran me through
风险和数字 the risks and the numbers.
如果我能告诉你凯拉的问题 What if I could show you
如何在她大脑根深蒂固？ how Kayla's issues are hard-wired in her brain?
功能磁共振成像可以证明凯拉的大脑部分 An fMRI could demonstrate how the part of Kayla's brain
处理情绪和疼痛反应 that handles emotional and pain response
功能异常 is functionally abnormal.
它会向你保证，「煎掉她的大脑」 It'll assure you that "frying her brain"
意味着只煎她大脑中无法运作的部分 means only frying the part of her brain that isn't working.
它会让你们俩都脱离起伏上落 And it'll get you both off of the roller coaster.
扫描是无害的 The scan's harmless.
好的，做吧 Okay, do it.
我懂了 哦，看到了吗？我可以旋转它 I've got it. Oh, see? I can spin it around.
我需要做一个术后检查 I need to do a post-op exam.
哦 你有修改 Oh. You have modifications.
我是迪士 I'm Dixie.
我的右手在车祸中弄到了 My right hand got messed up in a car accident.
我植入了射频识别芯片 I had RFID chips put in
这样我就可以打开我的前门 so I could unlock my front door,
存储我的医疗数据，并做一些很劲的技巧 store my medical info, and do some pretty cool tricks.
你被迪士吸引了吗？ Are you attracted to Dixie?
你是否担心没有植入物你 Are you concerned you'll be less attractive to her
对她的吸引力会降低？ without your implants?
我们只是朋友 We're just friends.
我每月举办一次生物黑客聚会， I host a monthly bio hacker meet up,
特伦特成了座上常客 and Trent's become a regular.
唯一知心好友 The only people who get me.
你找到了你的部落 You found your tribe.
切口部位看起来不错 请用右手 Incision sites look good. Right wrist please.
直到我来圣博纳文医院这里工作之后 It was not until I came to work here at St. Bonaventure
我才感觉我是一个小区的一部分 that I felt like I was part of a community.
我读过关于可以操作义肢 I've read about implants that can operate prosthetics
和枕叶电极 and an occipital lobe electrode
为失明人接收视觉图像的植入物 that receives visual images for sightless people.
哦，这些技术非常令人兴奋 Oh, these technologies are very exciting.
太酷了，对吧？ It's so cool, right?
我在想我应该成为一名工程师 I was thinking I should be an engineer
我可以为像迪士这样的人设计技术 and I can design tech for people like Dixie.
莫菲医生，他恢复得怎么样了？ How's he recovering, Dr. Murphy?
你好 Hello.
手术进行得很顺利 The surgeries went well.
手指看起来没有感染，细菌培养保持阴性 Finger looks free of infection and bacterial cultures remain negative.
我们仍然需要做核磁共振来评估他的关节 We still need to do an MRI to assess his joints
但我很乐观 but I'm optimistic.
很好 然后 一旦我 18 岁 Great. Then once I'm 18,
我就可以把我所有的模块重新装回去 I can get all my mods back in
由做迪士的专业后援 by the pros who did Dixie's.
意思是脱衣舞商场的纹身艺术家 Meaning the tattoo artist at the strip mall.
纹身店需要公共卫生许可证 Tattoo parlors require a public health permit.
是的，这比自己做要安全得多 Yes, that would be much safer than doing it himself.
今晚检查雨量 Rain check for tonight.
手术？ Surgery?
一位新病人提醒我，我需要花更多时间 A new patient reminded me I need to spend more time
在我的商业想法上 在舞池上的时间更少 on my business ideas, less time on the dance floor.
我看到你眼中闪烁着光芒 产品是什么？ I see a sparkle in your eyes. What is the product?
我的可摄入传感器监测肠道细菌 My ingestible sensor that monitors gut bacteria
当它穿过胃肠道时 as it travels through the GI tract.
恶心但很劲 Gross yet cool.
你将如何收集数据？ How are you gonna collect the data?
理想情况下，实时监控 Ideally, real-time monitoring.
我正在研究无线开源应用程序 I'm looking at wireless open-source programs.
你可以连接传感器 You could connect the sensor
通过蓝牙使用智能手机 with a smart phone via Bluetooth.
这将是创世巨作 That would be amazing.
但是那个代码写起来会很复杂 But that code would be pretty complicated to write.
其...实不难 Not for... me.
除了 IT 工作之外，你还有时间做这些吗？ You'd have time for that on top of your IT work?
由这位希望破坏医疗技术业务的 Says the second-year resident looking
二年级住院医生说出口 to disrupt the med-tech business.
我不能付钱给你，至少不能预先付款 I wouldn't be able to pay you, at least not up front.
我们可以瓜分战利品 We could divvy up the spoils.
75%；25% 最终报价 75%, 25% final offer.
该死的，好的，生意拍档 Hell yes, partner.
欢迎入局 Welcome aboard.
把这个放在你的日历上... Put this on your calendar...
2025 年 5 月，游艇购物 May 2025, yacht shopping.
好的 是的！ - Okay. - Yes!
莫菲医生？ Dr. Murphy?
请停止鼓励特伦特 Please stop encouraging Trent.
你对他的身体改造感兴趣 Your interest in his body modifications
给人一种肯定认可的印象 comes across as an endorsement.
我有兴趣 I am interested.
为什么我要假装我不是？ Why would I pretend that I'm not?
不久前，我们还在谈论截肢 Not so long ago, we were talking about amputating fingers.
在他再次这样做之前 Someone has to talk some sense into my son
必须有人对我儿子说些道理 before he does this again.
我很高兴和他聊天 I'm happy to have a chat with him.
他似乎与莫菲医生有联系 He seems to connect with Dr. Murphy.
如果你和他说话，他可能会听 If you talk to him, he might listen.
我...不会很擅长那个 I... would not be very good at that.
凯拉，接下来我要问你一系列提示 Kayla, next I'm gonna ask you a series of prompts
帮助我们绘制你的大脑活动图 to help us map your brain activity.
我将尽我所能 I'll do my best.
想想美好的回忆 Think of a nice memory.
来自快乐时光的东西 Something from a happy time.
你不喜欢我寄给你的公寓吗？ You didn't like any of the apartments I sent you?
正如预测的那样 As predicted, altered limbic activity
在与扣带皮层的连接中，边缘活动改变 in the connections to the cingulate cortex.
公寓还可以 The apartments are okay.
我很震惊你这么容易取悦 I'm shocked you're so easy to please.
你真是个狡猾的人 You're such a quibbler.
「讨厌装饰艺术」「低天花板等于厄运」 "Hate art deco." "Low ceilings equal doom."
「柏柏尔地毯令我脚痛」 "Berber carpets hurt my feet."
好吧... Well...
凯拉，现在我需要你想想一段不愉快的回忆 Kayla, now I need you to think of an unpleasant memory.
把它当作一种恭维，说我是如此挑剔 Take it as a compliment that I'm so picky.
挑剔的很好，被动没那么好 Picky's fine, passive not so much.
给我一些链接 Send me some links.
更多异常连接 More abnormal connectivity.
我们取得活动伪影 We're getting motion artifacts.
她在四处走动 She's moving around.
凯拉，你能试着保持不动吗？ Kayla, can you try and hold still?
对不起 我们可以停下来吗？ I'm sorry. Can we please stop?
凯拉？哪里受伤了？ - Kayla? Where does it hurt? - Mm-hmm?
到处 Everywhere.
它回来了 It's back.
你整晚没有上过床 You never came to bed.
我们应该行房 We were supposed to have sex.
对不起 Sorry.
我们的传感器一直 Our sensor keeps running out of power
通过消化道的一半时断电 halfway through the digestive tract.
这不在日程上，但我们现在可以做爱了 It's not on the schedule, but we could have sex now.
我得冲凉了 I have to shower.
我先冲凉 I shower first.
好的 我会灵活处理，给你冲咖啡 Okay. I will be flexible and make you coffee.
谢谢你 Thank you.
早上好 Good morning.
凯拉怎么样？ How's Kayla?
在痛苦和完全抑郁发作的边缘 In pain and on the edge of a full depressive episode.
我增加了她的加巴喷丁剂量 I upped her gabapentin
并开始了低剂量氯胺酮静脉注射 and started a low-dose Ketamine IV.
聪明 Smart.
你知道我们必须让她戒掉氯胺酮 You know we'll have to get her off the Ketamine
才能再次拍摄完成磁共振成像 before we take another shot at finishing the fMRI.
你不想和我一起住吗？ Do you not want to move in with me?
我一直很忙 我还有其他病人 I've been busy. I have other patients.
请允许我介绍多任务处理 Allow me to present multitasking.
看那个 三房两厕 Look at that. Three-bedroom, two-bath,
带游泳池的庭院建筑 courtyard building with a pool.
我们会为凯兰准备一间客房，一个共享办公室 We'd have a guest room for Kellan, a shared office,
而且离医院 10 分钟 and it's 10 minutes from the hospital.
嗯，看起来主卧室的窗户 Well, looks like the master bedroom window's
可以俯瞰庭院 overlooking the courtyard.
我知道 好的 I know. Nice.
不是很好 大声 Not nice. Loud.
然后给我看一个你会喜欢的 Then show me one you do like.
哦，该死的 Oh, hell no.
我要向大哥更新了 I'm gonna update the brother.
你给我传呼了？ You paged me?
早上好，肖恩 Good morning, Shaun.
莉亚和我错过了行房日 Lea and I missed our sex night.
这个早上并不好 It is not a good morning.
同意 Agreed.
我的早上从一个心烦意乱的母亲... Mine started with a distraught mother
你拒绝建议为他儿子 whose son you refused
反对生物黑客的母亲开始？ to advise against bio hacking?
他 18 岁时选择做什么取决于他 What he chooses to do when he is 18 is up to him.
是的，但你可以建议他 True, but you could advise him
防止进一步改装的危险 against the dangers of further mods.
特伦特享受他 Trent enjoys the connections he has made
在生物黑客小区所建立的联系 in the bio hacking community.
你真的认为归属感的情感好处 You really think the emotional benefits of belonging
超过这个孩子的身体危险？ outweigh the physical dangers for this kid?
青少年会做很多危险的事情 Teens do many dangerous things.
如果他玩滑板受伤了 If he injured himself skateboarding,
我应该劝他不要再玩滑板了吗？ should I advise him never to skateboard again,
让他和他的滑板朋友疏远？ which could alienate him from his skateboarder friends?
是否有潜在的医疗伤害？ Is there a potential for medical harm?
是的 Yes.
然后提醒你的病人 Then remind your patient of that.
你在说实话方面，没有困难 You have no trouble being honest.
我会做，只因为你是我的老板 I'll do it, only because you're my boss.
刚好是个例子 Case in point.
贾斯汀拒绝让我完成凯拉的功能磁共振成像 Justin's refusing to let me finish Kayla's fMRI.
他认为她在医院 He thinks her being in the hospital
是触发最新情绪阶段的事情 is what triggered this latest episode.
他...他完全被埋没了 He... He's totally dug in.
这是一个判断决定 It's a judgment call.
从法律上讲，这是他的判断 Legally,it's his judgment.
我需要你和他谈谈，让他改变主意 I need you to talk to him, get him to change his mind.
因为？你是外科医生 - Because? - You're the surgeon.
如果医学能说服他 If medicine could persuade him,
我们现在就在做手术了 we'd be in surgery right now.
所以我应该放弃吗？ So I should just give up?
我不知道 你想要吗？ I don't know. Do you want to?
不！ 好吧，那就别 - No! - Okay, then don't.
去寻找另一种策略 Go find another tactic.
好的 Okay.
不不不 我做手术，你做销售 No, no, no. I do the surgery, you do the selling.
好的 Okay, fine.
这样说吧 Look at it this way.
哥哥多年来一直在执妹妹的手尾，对吧？ The brother has been cleaning up after his sister for years, right?
所以与其试图改变他对手术的感受 So instead of trying to change his feelings about the surgery,
也许改变他对妹妹的感觉 maybe change his feelings about his sister.
未来的修改可能导致败血症 Future modifications could result in sepsis,
严重关节炎、假瘤形成、神经损伤和瘫痪 severe arthritis, pseudo-tumor formation, nerve damage and paralysis.
突然间你变成了禁毒广告中的人... Suddenly you're a guy in a drug commercial...
「副作用包括失眠、皮疹、干咳和死亡」 "Side effects include insomnia, rash, dry cough, and death."
听起来我妈妈找你了 Sounds like my mom got to you.
她试过了 She tried.
它没有用，但后来她去了我的老板 It didn't work, but then she went to my boss.
那确实生效了 That did work.
我觉得你妈妈关心你很好 I think that it is nice your mother cares about you.
我的没有 Mine did not.
我的曾经 Mine used to.
我父亲过去经常出差工作 My dad used to travel a lot for work.
他总是去向投资者推销 He was always off pitching to investors,
在拉斯韦加斯举行会议 conferences in Vegas.
我和我妈妈会一直闲逛 And me and my mom would hang out all the time.
每个周末，她都会带我去木板路 Every weekend, she would take me to the Boardwalk.
从来不说不-不管多少次 Never said no, no matter how many times
我想骑旋风 I wanted to ride the Cyclone.
旋风让我恶心 The Cyclone made me nauseous.
现在她只是一直在工作 Now she's just working all the time.
每当我们在一起时，她都会生气 And whenever we're together, she's angry.
永远不会停止唠叨我 Never stops nagging me.
她不喜欢你做生物黑客 She doesn't like you bio hacking.
我不认为她会喜欢我做的任何事情 I don't think she'd like anything I do.
是你的手指吗？ Is it your finger?
不，是我的手腕 No, it's my wrist.
凯拉最大的触发点不是在医院里 Kayla's biggest trigger isn't being in the hospital,
这是你对她生活的控制 it's your control over her life.
我详细回顾了她的历史 I reviewed her history in detail,
在过去的五年里 and over the last five years,
凯拉的主要抑郁发作 Kayla's major depressive episodes coincide
做出重大的人生决定时发生 with major life decisions
你替她做的... that you've made on her behalf...
换药搬家 Changing meds and moving homes,
为企业做决定 making decisions for the business.
你说这都是我的错 You're saying this is all my fault.
她说，对我自己的生活 She's saying that being in charge of my own life
负责会更好 would be better for me.
直到你喝醉或过度滥药 Until you get drunk or O.D.
那是几年前的事了 我已经不是那个人了 That was years ago. I'm not that person anymore.
因为我一直在保护你 Because I've been protecting you.
因为监管有效 Because the conservatorship works.
这个论点意味着我将永远处于这个状态 That argument means I'll be in this forever.
如果我做得好，就证明你是对的 If I'm doing well, it proves you right.
如果我一团糟，证明你是对的 If I'm a mess, proves you right.
我厌倦了，贾斯汀 I'm tired of this, Justin.
我厌倦了你想要我过的生活 I'm tired of living the life that you want me to.
你挑选我的医生，你搜查我的橱柜 You pick out my doctors, you search my cabinets,
你测试我的尿液是否有药物 you test my urine for drugs.
我们可以谈谈放宽其中的一些事情 We can talk about relaxing some of those things.
不！不 No! No.
我已经受够关于我自己的生活的谈判 I'm done negotiating over my own life,
把你认为最好的东西塞进我的喉咙 of having what you think is best rammed down my throat.
凯拉...想想象这样行事会 - Kayla... - Think acting like this is gonna
改变我对手术的看法？ change my mind about the surgery?
它不应该 这是我的生活！ It shouldn't have to. It's my life!
是我的脑残！ It's my messed-up brain!
这个地方对你不利 我需要她的出院文件 This place is bad for you. I need her discharge papers.
不要告诉她该怎么做！ Stop telling her what to do!
别再告诉大家该做什么了！ Stop telling everyone what to do!
凯拉，请...闭嘴！ - Kayla, please... - Shut up!
我需要 10 毫克氟哌啶醇 I need 10 milligrams of Haloperidol.
停下来 住口 Stop it. Shut up.
你安装在右手腕上的 LED 灯 The LED light you've installed in your right wrist
已经不可逆转地损坏了关节 has irreversibly damaged the joint.
你将永远无法恢复手中的全部功能 You will never regain full function in your hand.
你需要物理治疗 You'll need physical therapy
直到你能用你的非惯用手补偿 until you can compensate with your non-dominant hand.
该死的，特伦特 我告诉你多少次了？ Damn it, Trent. How many times did I tell you?
几千次，好吗？ Thousands, okay?
但我是个白痴，我从来没有听话 But I'm such an idiot, and I never listened.
我从来没有说过你是个白痴 I never said you were an idiot.
我说不要再伤害自己了 I said to stop hurting yourself.
也许一些家庭辅导会有所帮助？ Maybe some family counseling could help?
不，她是唯一需要辅导的人 No, she's the only one who needs counseling.
她是作为父母失败的人 She's the one who failed as a parent.
你的选择不是我的错 Your choices are not my fault.
但我得承受你的选择 But I'm stuck with yours.
就像你把爸爸扔出去一样 Like how you tossed Dad out.
他离去我们 He walked out on us.
我不想让你恨他 I didn't want you to hate him.
我没有意识到另一种选择是讨厌我 I hadn't realized that the alternative was hating me.
你父亲是个阴谋家 Your father was a schemer.
他不停地从一个大想法跳到下一个大想法 He kept flitting from one big idea to the next,
追逐幻想而不是承担责任 chasing fantasies instead of taking care of responsibility.
这是一个谎言 你是个骗子 That's a lie. You're a liar.
他是一个自恋的自恋者 He was a self-absorbed narcissist
谁比我们更关心自己 who cared more about himself than us.
这不是真的！特伦特... - That's not true! - Trent...
请别打扰我！出去！ Leave me alone! Get out!
出去！ Get out!
利多卡因让你麻木 Lidocaine to numb you.
我想你会希望我感受每一针 I figured you'd want me to feel every stitch.
我已经习惯了做坏人 I'm used to being the bad guy.
坏人不会放弃生命 Bad guys don't give up their lives
照顾他们的小姐妹 to care for their little sisters.
谢谢你看到那个 Thanks for seeing that.
你感觉到了吗？ You feel that?
人们把小时候的感觉理想化 People idealize what it's like being a kid,
但是，真的，童年的打击 but, really, childhood blows.
被告知要做什么 Being told what to do,
去哪里，如何听话 where to go, how to behave.
像一个有着可怕童年的人一样说话 Spoken like someone who had a terrible childhood.
这不是我的驾驶室，也不是我父母的 It wasn't my wheelhouse, or my parents'.
凯拉第一次尝试长大，她就着火了 Kayla's first try at growing up, she flamed out.
她不值得第二次机会吗？ Doesn't she deserve a second shot?
可能是 Maybe.
让凯拉为处女航 Leave it to Kayla to choose elective
选择选择性脑部手术 brain surgery for a maiden voyage.
吓死我了 Scares the crap out of me.
告诉她 Tell her that.
杰罗姆的生日快到了 Jerome's birthday is coming up.
我需要给他找一份很棒的礼物 I need to find him a great gift.
请不要分散我的注意力 Please don't distract me.
我正在为特伦特的手腕寻找手术解决方案 I am looking for a surgical solution for Trent's wrist.
那很勇敢，但他即将出院 That's valiant, but he's about to be discharged.
我需要一份礼物 I need a gift
上面写着「我真的很喜欢你」 that says "I'm really into you,"
但是，嗯，不太着迹 but, mm, without overdoing it.
我们可以尝试部分手腕融合 We could attempt a partial wrist fusion.
这年内不可 特伦特还在成长 Not for another year. Trent's still growing.
佐敦提到你有一些超级可爱的赛车睡衣 Jordan mentioned you have some super cute race car pajamas.
我可以给杰罗姆买一套 I could get Jerome a pair.
这些是老爷车 They are classic cars,
我不想在工作中讨论我的睡衣 and I'd prefer not to discuss my sleepwear at work.
我们可以给特伦特上一门甲氨蝶呤治疗... We could give Trent a course of Methotrexate to combat...
他会适应坏手腕 He'll adjust to the bad wrist.
更大的问题是母子俩 The bigger problem is that mother and son
表现得好像他们互相憎恨 act like they hate each other.
我不知道如何解决这个问题 I have no idea how to fix that.
他通过把自己变成个半机械人来控制自己感情 He's managing his feelings by turning himself into a cyborg.
特伦特不会变成半机械人... Trent is not becoming a cyborg...
但也许他可以！ But maybe he could!
我可以修复特伦特的手腕 I can fix Trent's wrist.
这项实验性手术 This experimental surgery
使用定制的植入物，来代替他的腕关节 uses a customized implant to replace his wrist joint.
他将充分利用他的手腕 He will have full use of his wrist.
还有，他会很开心 Also, he will be very happy,
因为他将进行独一无二的身体改造 because he'll have a one-of-a-kind body modification.
电子实验？ E-Experimental?
我们的保险会承担费用吗？ Would it be covered by our insurance?
不会 n-no.
我...它很贵 I-It is quite expensive.
这意味着我要拿第二笔钱来支付它 Which means I'm getting a second mortgage to pay for it.
如果特伦特继续进行其他修改 If Trent keeps getting other modifications,
这会导致该设备出现问题吗？ could that cause problems with this device?
是的，他的身体可能拒绝植入物 Yes, his body could reject the implant.
好的，但是...谢谢... Okay, but... Thank you...
特伦特应该能够遵循术后方案 Trent should be able to follow the post-op regimen,
包括没有进一步的修改 including no further modifications.
或者他会一直认为这是一个很正的爱好 Or he'll keep seeing it as a cool hobby
这让他可以把它加诸 which allows him to stick it to
他可怕而控制欲强的母亲身上 his terrible and controlling mother.
我可以修好你儿子的手腕... I can fix your son's wrist...
...如果征得你的同意 ...with your consent.
不 No.
看起来我们的传感器在它被拉出来之前 Looks like our sensor's gonna poop out before
就会拉出来 it gets pooped out.
也许如果我们再看一下组件规格 Maybe if we take another look at the component specs.
我制定了一份适用于艾伦医生 I have drawn up a list of house rules that apply to Dr. Allen
在我们的公寓工作时的家规清单 when she is working at our apartment.
一，在预定的性爱之夜不得工作 One, no work on scheduled sex nights.
我可以接受 I can get down with that.
二、不能在厨房水槽里刷牙 Two, no brushing teeth in the kitchen sink.
同意 Agreed.
三、不要喷香水 Three, do not wear perfume.
四、不要大声说话 Four, do not speak in a loud voice.
五、请避免目光接触 Five, please avoid eye contact.
肖恩...我还没说完 - Shaun... - I'm not finished.
避免眼神接触？ 嗯... - Avoid eye contact? - Mm...
是的 Yes.
肖恩，你不喜欢我在你的公寓吗？ Shaun, do you not like having me at your apartment?
我不喜欢公寓里有除莉亚 以外的任何人 I don't like having anyone other than Lea at the apartment.
有了莉亚，我感到很安全 With Lea, I feel safe.
当我完成工作时 I am not obligated to follow
我没有义务 the guidelines around social interactions.
遵守有关社交互动的准则 By the time I'm done with work,
我已经受够了遵循指导方针 I have had enough of following guidelines.
肖恩，我从来不知道 Shaunie, I never knew.
我们可以在其他地方工作 We can work someplace else.
公寓莉亚有一半 The apartment is half Lea's.
我很高兴她找到了朋友和伙伴 I am very happy she has found a friend and partner.
艾伦医生... Dr. Allen...
...你是我部落的一员 ...you are part of my tribe.
欢迎你来我们家 You are welcome in our home.
只要你遵守规则，包括 As long as you follow the rules, including,
六、你在的时候我可以不理你 six, I am allowed to ignore you when you are there.
你有没有觉得我们绕来绕去 Does it ever feel to you like we go round and round,
但我们总能寻回同样悲伤地方的旧路吗？ but we always find our way back to this same, sad place?
我记得我们第一次来这里的时候 I remember when we first got here.
你 12 岁 You were 12
去市政花园的学校实地考察 on a school field trip to the Municipal Garden.
我来到，看着你画玫瑰 And I got there and watched you sketch roses.
那么自信 So confident,
内心安宁 at peace,
纯洁 innocent.
然后我不得不告诉你爸爸妈妈已经死了 Then I had to tell you Mom and Dad were dead.
我发誓我会尽我所能 I swore that I'd do everything I could
以免你再次受到那样的伤害 to keep you from being hurt like that again.
我知道你只是想保护我 I know you're just trying to protect me.
我也在保护我 I'm protecting me, too.
我一直很害怕我会失去你 I've been so scared that I could lose you.
在做核磁共振成像时 During the fMRI
瑞兹尼克医生叫我想一段快乐的回忆 Dr. Reznick asked me to think of a happy memory.
内华达州 西尔弗托普 Silver top, Nevada.
是的 Yeah.
你和我在独木舟的那条河上 You and me on that river in the canoe.
那间小屋真是个垃圾场 That cabin was such a dump.
它是 It was.
我们在那里，只是因为我搞砸了 And we were only there 'cause I screwed up
忘了给你报名参加那个营地 and forgot to sign you up for that camp.
卡皮斯特拉诺营地 Camp Capistrano.
是的 Yeah.
那是爸爸妈妈去世后的第一个夏天 That was the first summer after Mom and Dad died.
你情有可原 You had an excuse.
那是一躺很好的旅行 That was a good trip.
我有过的最好的假期 Best vacation I ever had.
我想重回旧地 I want that again.
我们总是可以回去的 We can always go back.
不是旅行 Not the trip.
自在 The freedom,
那种幸福 that happiness
没有下一轮的痛苦和抑郁降临在我身上 without the next bout of pain and depression landing over me.
这是我的机会 This is my chance.
请让我捉紧 Please let me take it.
好的 Okay.
我很想和你一起迈出下一步 I'm dying to take this next step with you.
由鸡蛋里挑骨头的人说 Says the guy who's sandbagging the search.
是钱 It's the money.
在凯兰的大学学费和我的医学院债务之间 Between Kellan's college tuition and my med school debt,
月底剩下的不多了 there's not much left at the end of the month.
在此之上 And on top of that
我的信用是一团糟 My credit's a mess.
这只是为了钱？ This is just about money?
只是？ Just?
如果你付不起，我来付 If you can't afford it, I got you.
我自己付钱 永远有，永远都会 I pay my own way. Always have, always will.
你的财务问题不是搁置我们计划的理由 Your financial issues are no reason to put our plans on hold.
当你从来不用担心钱的时候，这很容易说 An easy thing to say when you've never had to worry about money,
但我们中的一些人不得不生活在现实世界中 but some of us have had to live in the real world.
如果你有钱而我没有 And if you had the money and I didn't,
你不想改善我们俩的情况吗？ you wouldn't want to improve both our situations?
这与现实世界无关 This isn't about the real world.
这是关于你的自尊 It's about your pride.
我有你的处方和治疗推荐 I have your prescriptions and therapy referrals.
我能做到 I can do it.
那就去做 Then do it.
我猜这也是我的错 I'm guessing this is my fault, as well.
好的 Okay.
你的行为方式非常令人困惑和沮丧 The way you behave is very confusing and frustrating.
这根本不合理 It doesn't make sense at all.
你批评特伦特所做的每一个选择 You criticize every choice Trent makes
永远不要问他为什么这样决定 and never ask why he's making them.
听到了吗？ See?
你故意做出你知道 You deliberately made choices you knew
你妈妈不会同意的选择 your mother wouldn't approve of,
然后当她不同意时非常生气 and then were very angry when she didn't approve.
甚至他也认为你的生物黑客行为太过分了 Even he thinks you took your bio hacking too far.
自从爸爸离开后，她一直生我的气 She's been mad at me since Dad left.
哦，那不是真的 是的 - Oh, that's not true. - Yes, it is.
你不喜欢我 You don't like me.
你不喜欢我的朋友 You don't like my friends.
我不理解你的朋友 I don't understand your friends.
你从来没有尝试过 You never tried to.
你就是生我的气，因为... You're just mad at me because...
你被逼和我困在一起 You're stuck with me.
我一直很生气，但不是 I have been mad, but not at you,
因你父亲离开，而生你的气 at your father for leaving.
而是怕我不能照顾你或支撑我们 Afraid I couldn't take care of you or support us.
当你父亲离开时，你很心伤 You were so hurt when your father left.
我只想让你感觉好点，但我偏偏... All I wanted to do was make you feel better, but I just...
我太受伤了 I was too damaged
嫉妒你有新朋友 and jealous of your new friends,
我本应欣喜 when I should've been grateful.
但我害怕会因他们而失去你 But I was afraid of losing you to them.
毕竟，你喜欢他们嘛 After all, you like them.
你是我的妈妈 You're my mom.
我不应该喜欢你的 I'm not supposed to like you.
过来 Come here.
我现在可以做手术吗？ Can I do the surgery now?
你会满意成果的 You are gonna like this.
是时候为你准备手术了 Time to prep you for surgery.
出发之前，嗯... Before I go, um...
我得到了一点灵感 I got a little inspired.
我会为你留住他们 I'll hang on to them for you.
准备好？ Ready?
是的 Yeah.
腕骨切除术看起来不错 Carpal resection looks good.
你说了什么改变了嘉莉的想法？ What did you say to change Carrie's mind?
我不知道 I'm not sure.
我试图理解他们 I tried to understand them.
也许你可以做我和我父亲的下一个 Maybe you could do me and my father next.
腕骨和桡骨为升级做好了准备 Carpal and radial bones prepped for the upgrade.
我宣布荣誉归你 I'd say you get the honors.
解决冲突是参加者的一项关键技能 Resolving conflict is a crucial skill for an attending.
做得很好 Nicely done.
将腕球放置在远程组件上 Placing carpal ball onto the distal component.
在接下来的几天里 For the next few days
预计会出现一些头痛和疲劳 expect some headaches and fatigue,
但术后症状应该很快过去 but the post-op symptoms should quickly pass.
凯拉，你感觉如何？ Kayla, how do you feel?
奇怪的 Strange.
有些东西不见了 Something's missing.
疼痛 The pain.
我想我还是我 And I think I'm still me.
老爹 Bro-dad.
我们得去见法官 We have to go see a judge.
是时候让我只做你兄弟了 It's time I was just your brother.
关节成形术固定了特伦特的手腕 The arthroplasty fixed Trent's wrist
就像我说的那样 like I said it would.
你将需要重要的治疗 You will need significant therapy,
但你的预后很好 but your prognosis is good.
你最好认真对待这件事 And you better take this seriously.
吃药，康复 Take your meds, do your rehab.
邀请你的朋友迪斯过来吃餐晚饭 Invite that friend of yours, Dixie, over for dinner.
真的吗？ Really?
嗯，她看起来很有趣 Well, she seems interesting.
这些是你的手腕植入物的示意图 These are the schematics of your wrist implant.
工程规格非常有趣 The engineering specifications are quite interesting.
谢谢，莫菲医生 Thanks, Dr. Murphy.
我很高兴我的钥匙还能用 I'm glad my key still works.
这是我的自尊作祟 It was about my pride.
我把它当作障碍 And I used that as an obstacle,
而不是对你诚实 instead of being honest with you.
对不起 I'm sorry.
这是一大步，但让我们继续沟通 It's a big step, but let's keep talking.
我相信我会及时克服自己的 I'm sure I'll get over myself, in time.
你能在一个月内完成吗？ Can you do it in a month?
因为我找到了我喜欢的房子 Because I found a house that I love.
华丽的 Gorgeous.
以这个价格，它应该是的 And at that price, it should be.
我会非常感谢 I would be very grateful for a studly roommate
可以支付水电费的学习室友 who could cover the utility bills.
租金呢？ What about rent?
我在想以提供服务代替，比如... I was thinking services rendered, like...
赤膊草坪割草，赤膊游泳池清洁 Shirtless lawn mowing, shirtless pool cleaning,
赤膊准备就餐 shirtless meal prep.
好吧，某些有学问的人会争辩 Well, certain studly men would argue
如果我们不从平等的基础上开始 if we don't start on equal footing,
它永远不会是我们的家 it'll never be our house.
这将是我们的家，因为我们会经营的 It'll be our home, because we'll make it that.
一个游泳池？热水浴缸呢？ A pool? What about a hot tub?
我们的电源问题是软件问题 Our power issue is a software issue.
因为你的数据域要求 Because your data domain requirements mandate
一个需要比我们 a specific chip that requires
实际更多的功率的特定芯片... way more power than we can actually...
如果传感器不那么礼貌又如何呢？ What if the sensor had bad manners?
需要休息时关机 Shuts down when it needs to rest,
忽略无关紧要的事情 ignores what doesn't matter.
它工作，它休息，它工作，它休息 It works, it rests, it works, it rests.
我们可以在数据点之间进行推断 We could extrapolate between the data points.
这可以使传感器的寿命加倍 That could double the sensor's life.
你就是灵感源泉，肖恩 You're pure inspiration, Shaun.
我正在忽视你 I am ignoring you.