肖恩? Shaun?
哦 你好 格拉斯曼医生 Oh, hello, Dr. Glassman.
如果你要谈论我们的争论... If you're here to talk about our argument...
我是 算是的 I am, kind of, in a way.
在莎伦手下工作 Working under Salen
使我成为一个坏医生 所以我辞职了 was making me into a bad doctor, so I quit.
我正在建立一个住院医生个案的电子表格 I'm creating a spreadsheet of residency programs.
我有 12 个指标 I have 12 metrics.
嗯 肖恩 这是一个问题 Well, Shaun, that's a problem,
因为周围并没有很多的个案 because there aren't a lot of programs around
在你的水平上 会有一个住院医生 that are gonna take a resident at your level.
而且还... And also...
由于自闭的缘故 你有些脆弱 You're somewhat vulnerable because of the ASD.
我已经退出了 I've already quit.
我们有一个计划 肖恩 We got a plan, Shaunie.
我们正在与一位调查记者交谈 We are talking to an investigative reporter
对于莎伦对圣邦的损害的报道 for a story on the damage that Salen has done to St. Bon's.
这将给养老基金带来压力 It'll put pressure on the Pension Fund
为医院接管提供资金的那个 that's financing the hospital takeover.
这笔交易在八天内不会完成 The deal doesn't close for eight days.
我们仍然有时间来阻止它 We still have time to stop it.
我们认为你应该向莎伦道歉 We think you should apologize to Salen
并要求恢复你的工作 and ask for your job back.
道歉吧 拯救你的事业 Apologize. Save your career.
她不会同意 She will not say yes.
哦 她会说是的 Oh, she will say yes.
你在海报上 她要做什么 You're on the poster. What's she gonna do,
把你从医院里拖出来踢来踢去吗？ drag you out of the hospital kicking and screaming?
这将会是一场公关灾难 It'd be a PR disaster.
我没有什么需要道歉的 她有 I have nothing to apologize for. She does.
我们同意 但如果我们成功了 We agree, but if we pull this off
也只有八天的时间 it is only for eight days.
但如果你不这样做呢？ But what if you don't?
如果我们不这样做 那我们就重新思考 If we don't, then we rethink.
我将专注于医学 I will focus on the medicine.
我们医院士气有问题 We've got a morale problem at the hospital.
也许这只是发生在孩子事情的余震 Maybe it's just aftershocks from what happened with the baby,
但我听到很多抱怨 but I'm hearing a lot of complaints.
连董事会都不高兴了 Even the board's unhappy.
这就是为什么 Which is why
我计划在交易完成后立即更换它们 I plan to replace them as soon as the deal closes.
好吧 好医生比董事会成员更难取代 Well, good doctors are a lot harder to replace than board members.
我们失去的任何员工 Any employees we lose
都会找到与爱思医疗更一致的其他人 we'll find others better aligned with Ethicure.
我们在圣邦医院有很多优秀的人 We've got a lot of great people at St. Bon's,
而且我想努力挽留他们 and I'd like to make an effort to keep them.
你的士气如何？ How's your morale?
我很好 I'm fine.
我知道昨天很艰难 I know yesterday was tough,
气管移植 the tracheal transplant.
我希望你不是在怀疑自己 I hope you aren't doubting yourself.
肖恩警告过我 我没听 Shaun warned me. I didn't listen.
你冒了风险 You took a risk,
而你的病人会因此得到更好的治疗 and your patient is better off for that.
而现在你和我要令这里 And now you and I are gonna make this
成为湾区最成功的医院 the most successful hospital in the Bay Area.
没有头痛、头晕的感觉？ No headaches, dizziness?
不 我现在感觉很好 No. I feel fine now.
视力模糊？ Blurry vision?
莫菲医生 你为什么在这里？ Dr. Murphy, why are you here?
我专注于医人 I'm focusing on the medicine.
我自己没有任何病人 I don't have any patients of my own.
可能是因为你昨天辞职了 Probably because you quit yesterday.
你和莎伦谈过吗？ Have you spoken to Salen?
这说明你在跑步时失去了知觉 This says you lost consciousness while running
并击中你的头 and hit your head.
呃 是的 Uh, yep.
也没有 没有模糊的视觉 And no. No blurry vision.
你最近从伦敦飞来 You recently flew in from London.
也许你的疲劳或脱水... Perhaps your fatigue or dehydration...
那是飞行后的第三天 It was three days post-flight,
并且肝功能测试只是轻微升高 and the liver function tests are only slightly elevated
尽管六个月前接受捐赠的肝脏 despite receiving a donor liver six months back.
这似乎与移植无关 It doesn't seem transplant-related.
嗯 那是一个非常高质素的肝脏 Well, it was a very high-quality liver.
来自一个更高质素的人 From an even higher-quality person.
你就是那个捐赠者？ You're the donor?
莱从幼儿园起就是我最好的朋友 Ry's been my best friend since kindergarten.
我快要死了 我的妻子已经怀孕七个月了 I was about to die, with my wife seven months pregnant.
他立即挺身而出 完全是个英雄 He immediately stepped up. Total hero.
肯定是的 Definitely is.
我们将安排头部 CT 检查 We'll schedule a head CT
以寻找你摔倒后的损伤 to look for damage from your fall,
以及你晕倒的任何原因 as well as any reason why you fainted.
很好 我相信会没事的 是的 Great. I'm sure it'll be fine. Yeah.
如果没有 好讯息是 你可以拿回你的肝脏 If not, good news. You get your liver back.
它不是这样运作的 That's not how it works.
你在这里做什么？ What are you doing here?
我在这里工作 I work here.
这不是我理解到的 That's not what I took away
从我们昨天晚上的谈话中可以看出 from our conversation last night.
昨天晚上 我想辞职 今天 我不想 Last night, I wanted to quit. Today, I don't.
你必须离开 You need to leave.
现在 Now.
并不 No.
这不是一个建议 再见 It's not a suggestion. Goodbye.
不 No.
我在海报上 I am on the poster.
你不会把我从医院里拖出来 踢来踢去地叫 You will not drag me out of the hospital kicking and screaming.
这将是一场公关灾难 所以我留下来 It would be a PR disaster. So I'm staying.
我得去工作了 I have to go to work.
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什么时候开始出血的？ When did the bleeding start?
大约一个小时前 About an hour ago.
有无头晕或恶心的感觉？ Any dizziness or nausea?
没有 我告诉她 有些斑点是正常的 None. I told her that some spotting was normal.
这是我最后一个可用的胚胎 This is my last viable embryo.
我流产的次数多得数不清 I've had more miscarriages than I can count.
我已经这样做了五次 I've done this five times already.
宝宝的情况还可以 The baby is... Is fine.
你们都有五个孩子在家里？你真专业 You all have five kids at home? You are experts.
不 我们不是一对的 No, we're not a couple.
实际上 我没有自己的孩子 I actually don't have any children of my own.
格蕾丝是我的代孕者 Grace is my surrogate.
代孕者和他们的客户一起闲逛 这很常见吗？ Is it typical for surrogates and their clients to hang out together?
她现在已经变得更像是我家人了 She has become more like family now.
这是健康的心跳 That's a healthy heartbeat.
有些不太对劲 S-Something is wrong.
腹部的核磁共振和经阴道的超声检查 MRI abdomen and transvaginal ultrasound.
无颅内出血 无肿瘤 No intracranial bleed, no tumor.
我想你知道我们中的一些人 I assume you know some of us
正在公开反对爱思医疗 are going public against Ethicure.
格拉斯曼医生和莉亚告诉我 Dr. Glassman and Lea told me,
但他们认为我应该置身事外 but they think I should stay out of it.
你想做什么？ What do you want to do?
是否有可能 Is it possible
确定什么是正确的事情 to be sure what the right thing is,
但据此行事 也可以是错误的？ but it's also wrong to act on it?
往往都是这样 All too often.
而无论发生什么 And whatever happens,
我知道你是站在我们这边的 I know you're on our side.
扫描似乎很清楚 Scan seems to be clear.
那么他为什么会发作呢？ Then why is he having a seizure?
格蕾丝的扫描结果看起来很正常 Grace's scans look normal.
没有胎盘撕裂或前置胎盘 No placenta accreta or previa.
我喜欢她所做的事情 I love what she's doing,
为一个没有能力的女人怀上孩子 carrying a child for a woman who can't.
如果格雷斯没有得到报酬 我会更喜欢它 I'd love it more if Grace wasn't getting paid for it.
她建立了五个家庭 She created five families.
你真的对此有意见吗？ Do you really have a problem with that?
不仅仅是我有意见 It's not just me.
商业代孕是非法的 Commercial surrogacy is illegal
除了这里 几乎所有地方都是如此 pretty much everywhere but here.
这是剥削性的 It's exploitative.
有趣的是 每个人都会真正关注 Funny how everyone gets real concerned
剥削 当它是女士的身体 about exploitation when it's women's bodies.
与此同时 Meanwhile
足球运动员每个星期天都会给自己的大脑带来伤害 football players give themselves brain damage every Sunday,
并且得到了荣耀 and it's glorified.
有道理 Point taken.
你知道 现在还不算太晚 You know, it's not too late
来改变你对莎伦这个东西的看法 to change your mind about this Salen stuff.
你应该加入我们 You should join us.
说到男人告诉女人该怎么做... Speaking of men telling women what to do...
看看这个 Look at this.
我不得不把孩子送到 I've had to send children
到社区过渡护理单位 to community transition care units
因为她是如何将儿科病床降到最低的 because of how she's minimized pediatric beds.
这就是他的证词？ That's his testimony?
这是他证词的开始 It's the start of his testimony.
计划让他们屈服？ The plan being to bore them into submission?
我的计划是让他们知道她到底做了什么 My plan is to let them know exactly what she's done
以及它是如何影响更大的社区的 and how it's impacted the greater community.
哦 是那个送薄饼的家伙 Oh, it's the pizza guy.
婴儿死亡 这就是我们的计划 Infant fatality. That's our plan.
让我们坚持这一点 我们无法证明这一点 Let's stick to that. We can't prove that.
但我们拥有的是医生和护士 But what we do have are doctors and nurses
和系统性忽视的故事 and stories of systemic neglect.
这不是那个送比萨的人 It's not the pizza guy.
别担心 我给了他小费 Don't worry. I tipped him.
我喜欢你这点 I love your place.
聪明的一手 Smart play.
这就是我所要做的 That's what I'd do.
是吗？那是什么戏？ Yeah? What play is that?
让那个调查记者 Getting that investigative reporter
来写一篇关于我的攻击性文章 to write a takedown piece about me
并利用这一点向养老基金施压 and using that to pressure the Pension Fund.
沃克医生 朴医生 Dr. Wolke, Dr. Park,
现在是你们两位住院医生回去工作的时候了 it's time for you two residents to get back to work.
我不会离开 我也不会 I'm not leaving. Me neither.
真有胆量 来自一个二年级的学生 Gutsy, coming from a second-year
他已经杀了一个病人 who already killed a patient.
而且你真的应该向你的女朋友学习 And you really ought to take lessons from your girlfriend.
她知道如何玩这个游戏 She knows how to play the game.
奥黛丽 莉亚 亚伦 我很抱歉 Audrey, Lea, Aaron, I'm sorry,
但我必须立即终止你的工作 but I have to terminate your employment immediately.
你刚才说什么？ You were saying?
走吧 Go.
这是你的计划？ That your plan?
让我们看起来像心怀不满的前雇员？ Make us look like disgruntled former employees?
你认为这能阻止我们上市吗？ You think that's gonna stop us from going public?
不 当然不是 No, of course not.
但是...我认为这项研究会 But... I think this research will.
尽管你的薪水很丰厚 但你几个月都没有露面 Despite your generous salary, you were a no-show for months,
在你的车库里酿酒 在蒙大拿州度假 making wine in your garage, vacationing in Montana.
所有经过多年干预的 All after years of intervening
来原谅你的医徒莫菲的反复无常的行为 to excuse your protege Dr. Murphy's erratic behavior.
你雇佣了你的男朋友 You hired your boyfriend,
然后在双方关系恶化后将其解雇 then fired him once the relationship soured.
典型的性骚扰 Classic sexual harassment.
这不是...他-他退出了 That's not... H-He quit.
你偷偷地改变了医院的指标 You secretly changed hospital metrics
来帮助你的未婚夫 to help your fiance.
现在 你们只是失去了你们的工作 Right now, you've only lost your jobs.
走向公众 Go public,
而我公开这一切 and I release all this.
欺骗日 Cheat day.
J.L.、霍克斯和科尔森已经出局 J.L., Hawks, and Colson are out.
那个记者？ The reporter?
她仍然会和我们交谈 这仍然是一个好故事 She'll still talk to us. It's still a good story.
只是比计划的时间短得多 Just much shorter than planned.
她是对的吗？我们是在浪费时间吗？ Was she right? Are we wasting our time?
可能是这样 Probably.
养老基金的年会在两天后举行 对吗？ The Pension Fund's annual meeting is in two days, right?
是的 Yeah.
我们在那里见到了记者 大的公共环境 We meet the reporter there. Big public setting.
在投资者面前谴责莎伦 Denounce Salen in front of the investors.
创造一个有毒的时刻 Create a viral moment.
这可能会造成一些损害 That might do some damage.
她可以在技术上毁了我 She could ruin me in tech.
我加入了 I'm in.
你在威胁要毁掉他们的事业 You're threatening to ruin their careers?
这些都是好医生 These are good doctors.
谁决定要试图干涉我的公司 Who've decided to try to interfere with my company.
你不能指望我只是接受这个事实 You can't expect me to just accept that.
我在每一步都支援你 I've backed you at every step
因为我相信一个伟大的医院也可以是有利可图的 because I believe a great hospital could be profitable, too.
但敲诈是不可接受的 But blackmail is unacceptable.
思考大局 Think big picture.
我们刚刚失去了医院的院长 We just lost the president of the hospital.
你在管理这个地方 You're running this place.
短期的 Short-term.
未来是广阔的 The future is wide open.
对于我们两个人来说 For both of us.
林医生在哪里？ Where's Dr. Lim?
她已经不在了 She's no longer available.
但我是外科主任 But I'm the Chief of Surgery
并将亲自参与到你的个案中 and will be personally involved in your case.
不幸的是 你的成像是一致的 Unfortunately, your imaging is consistent
膀胱肉瘤与你的子宫相连接 with a bladder sarcoma abutting your uterus.
癌症？ Cancer?
但我们做了代孕测试 But we did surrogacy testing.
现在它很小 但它会随着胎儿的成长而继续成长 It's small right now, but it will continue to grow as the fetus does.
我的天呐 Oh, God.
那我们能做什么呢？ And what can we do?
最安全的选择 The safest option
是终止怀孕 切除肿瘤 is to terminate the pregnancy, resect the tumor,
并开始化疗 and begin chemotherapy.
还有其他选择吗？ Are there any other options?
有一些化疗方案 There are a number of chemotherapy protocols
对第二孕期的胎儿是安全的 that are safe for second trimester fetuses.
但它们的效果都会大打折扣 But they'll all be far less effective
与手术相比...对癌症的治疗效果更好 against the cancer than surgery.
我想做化疗 I want to do the chemo.
格蕾丝... Grace...
你确定吗？ Are you sure?
是的 Yes.
所以...我听说 So... I heard.
你很幸运还能有一份工作 You're lucky to still have a job.
嗯 我不知道是运气好还是你的原因 Well, I'm not sure if it's luck or you.
莎伦建议我学着像你那样玩游戏 Salen suggested I learn to play the game like you do.
她是对的 She's right.
我没有意识到做医生是一种游戏 I didn't realize being a doctor was a game.
你为什么要纠结于此呢？ Why are you obsessing about this?
我们有一个会议 We have a meeting.
我相信你们所有人都有感觉 I'm sure all of you have feelings
关于我们的同事所发生的事情 about what happened with our colleagues.
肖恩 如果你想谈一谈... Shaun, if you want to talk...
莱恩患有脑膜炎 Ryan has encephalitis.
莉亚是好的 我正专注于医人 Lea is okay. I'm focusing on the medicine.
你说他的头部 CT 是干净的 You said his head CT was clean.
我们的扫描被他的癫痫发作打断了 Our scan was interrupted by his seizure.
我回过头来 检视了这些影像 I went back and reviewed the images.
似乎有低密度的现像 There appears to be hypodensity
在双侧内侧颞叶 in the bilateral medial temporal lobes.
有趣的是 提示是 单纯胞疹病毒 Interesting. Suggests HSV.
那只是颅底的人工制品 这不是脑膜炎 That's just artifact from skull base. It's not encephalitis.
干净 CT 加上干净血液检查表明有心脏问题 Clean CT plus clean blood test suggests a cardiac problem.
我支持朴医生 将莱恩置于遥测状态并... I'm with Dr. Park. Place Ryan on telemetry and...
你应该相信我 You should trust me.
我昨天告诉你不要做那个手术 I told you not to do that surgery yesterday.
我当时是对的 我现在也是对的 I was right then, and I am right now.
没有理由不排除脑膜炎的可能 也是如此 No reason not to rule out encephalitis, as well.
除了心电监护仪外 还要让他开始服用阿昔洛韦 Start him on acyclovir in addition to the cardiac monitor.
我们可以尝试异环磷酰胺 We could try Ifosfamide.
林和其他人正在发言 Lim and the others are speaking out
在后天的养老基金年度会议上 at the annual Pension Fund meeting the day after tomorrow.
请帮助我为格蕾丝找到一个化疗方案 Please help me find a chemo regimen for Grace.
好的 异环磷酰胺可以引起早产 Okay, Ifosfamide can cause pre-term labor.
我打算用阿霉素 I'm gonna go with Adriamycin.
我将和他们一起发言 I'm gonna speak out with them.
那会毁掉你的整个职业生涯 That's gonna blow up your whole career.
毁掉你的整个生活 Blow up your whole life.
这不是第一次了 Wouldn't be the first time.
跟我们走吧 你的销售能力很强 Come with us. You're great at sales.
帮助我们劝说养老基金 Help us persuade the Pension Fund.
有时你得为正确的事情站出来 Sometimes you got to stand up for what's right.
我无论支不支持 What I do or do not stand up for
是我的选择 is my choice,
而我的朋友们应该尊重这一点 and my friends should respect that.
你想出了什么办法？ What have you come up with?
有几个选择... There are a few options...
格蕾丝正在崩溃 Grace is crashing.
我要给你做脑膜炎测试 I'm going to test you for encephalitis
并对你进行遥测 以检查心脏问题 and place you on telemetry to check for heart problems.
好的 Okay.
你的颈部是否感到不适？ Is your neck bothering you?
是的 只是开始觉得有点奇怪 Y-Yeah. It just started feeling a little weird.
好的 请你把你的长袍从肩上拿下来好吗？ Okay, can you take your gown off your shoulders, please?
那--那是什么？ W-What is that?
不是脑膜炎或心脏问题 Not encephalitis or a heart problem.
你有一个子宫血管破裂的问题 You had a uterine vessel rupture.
我们能够对其进行治疗 We were able to treat it,
但你的癌症比我们想象的进展得更快 but your cancer's progressing quicker than we thought.
我们的建议是终止 Our recommendation is to terminate.
我们将切除肿瘤 并重建你的膀胱 We'll remove the tumor and reconstruct your bladder.
但你说 But you said
有一种化疗对婴儿是安全的 there was a chemotherapy that was safe for the baby.
断裂使一切变得更加严重 The rupture made everything more serious.
你现在需要手术 You need surgery now,
否则癌症可能会杀死你 or the cancer might kill you.
如果你不想终止 If you don't want to terminate,
有一种实验性的膀胱镜手术 there is an experimental cystoscopic surgery.
它应该能够清除几乎所有的癌症 It should be able to clear almost all of the cancer.
什...对婴儿有什么风险？ W-What... What are the risks to the baby?
30 % 的流产机会 30% chance of miscarriage.
格蕾丝 Gracie.
没关系的 It's okay.
你应该终止 You should terminate.
你应该做手术 You should do the surgery
这可以摆脱所有的癌症 that gets rid of all of the cancer.
我想做化疗 I'd like to do the chemo.
你意识到你可能无法生存 You realize you probably won't survive.
只要婴儿达到生存能力 As long as the baby reaches viability.
格蕾丝 亲爱的 你不必为我做这个 Gracie, honey, you don't have to do this for me.
我没有 I'm not.
我浏览了你最近的一些个案 I went through some of your recent cases.
为...为什么? W-Why?
因为莎伦说了什么 Because of what Salen said.
你知道她喜欢我 她喜欢我有什么问题呢？ You know she likes me. What's the problem with her liking me?
因为你的偏执反应 Because of your paranoid reaction.
我的反应是因为这似乎是 I reacted because it seemed like
你在她的评论中读出了什么 you were reading something into her comment.
就像你不信任我一样 Like you didn't trust me.
而现在你在翻阅我的档案？ And now you're going through my files?
显然 我不是偏执狂 Apparently, I'm not paranoid.
尼拉 约瑟夫 Nira Joseph.
我没有意识到”玩游戏“ I didn't realize "playing the game"
是失去整个道德指南针的简写 is shorthand for losing your entire moral compass.
尼拉因为你而半盲了 Nira is half-blind because of you.
她有一个肿瘤... She had a tumor...
她的档案里没有提到 There is no mention in her file
可以挽救回她视力的手术 of the procedure that could have saved her sight.
一个你认为并不可行的程序 A procedure you thought wasn't a viable idea.
我并没有告诉你要隐藏它 I didn't tell you to hide it.
你不可能为每一个病人提供每一个实验性手术... You can't offer every patient every experimental surgery...
特别是当”我们“试图赢得对诊所的控制时 especially not when "we're" trying to win control of the clinic.
这在医学上是正确的选择 It was the right choice medically.
这是她当初的选择 It was her choice.
莱恩的皮疹加上癫痫发作和昏厥 Ryan's rash plus seizure and fainting
提示是一种自身免疫性疾病 suggests an autoimmune disorder.
有道理 他的红细胞沉降率升高了 Makes sense. His ESR's elevated.
红细胞沉降率是一种非特异性结合率的标识 ESR's a nonspecific inflammatory marker.
如果它是升得很高 也没有关系 Wouldn't matter if it was through the roof.
朴医生 你对这个诊断有意见吗？ Dr. Park, are you taking offense at the diagnosis?
莎伦解雇了我们的朋友 Salen fired our friends.
我事先不知道这一点 没有支持它 I didn't know about that in advance, didn't support it.
那你现在支持吗？ And do you support it now?
他支持什么并不重要 他不是首席执行官 It doesn't matter what he supports. He's not the CEO.
不 他只是她的行李员 No, he's just her bagman.
莎伦进入这间医院 是因为它要破产了 Salen came into this hospital because it was going bankrupt.
而现在它变成了莎伦的提款机 And now it's become Salen's ATM machine.
这是一种进步？ That's an improvement?
从她进来的那一刻起 你就一直在反对她 You have been against her from the moment she came in.
刚刚被证明是正确的 Just proven right.
你没有面对现实 接管正在发生 You're not facing reality. The takeover's happening.
总得有人来维持医院的运转 Someone's got to keep the hospital running.
你以为你很现实吗？你是在做同谋 You think you're being realistic? You're being complicit.
我们应该让莱恩开始使用 We should start Ryan
皮质类固醇治疗自身免疫性疾病... on corticosteroids for the autoimmune...
难道你们不知道为她辩护 Don't you see how being her
是如何使你们堕落的吗？ apologists is corrupting you?
朴医生... Dr. Park...
你夺走了一个女人的视野 You took a woman's vision away
以获得你对诊所的控制 to get your hands on the clinic.
这不公平 Not fair.
在她杀了一个孩子之后 你还支持她 And you stand by her after she kills a child.
朴医生 你有别的诊断吗？ Dr. Park, do you have an alternative diagnosis?
没有 No.
让莱恩开始使用皮质类固醇 Start Ryan on corticosteroids.
我受够了 I'm done.
我治疗完了我的病人 I'll finish up with my patients
然后提交我的辞呈 and then submit my resignation.
如果我在市中心找到一份工作 If I get a job downtown,
这将是一个午餐聚会的好地方 this would be a good place to meet for lunch.
他们有很棒的法式煎饼 有点像鸡蛋 但... They have great French pancakes. Kind of eggy, but...
我应该加入你们 I should join you.
莉亚 我是海报男孩 Lea, I'm the poster boy.
它使莎伦带我回去 它可以使情况发生变化 It made Salen take me back. It could make the difference.
这当然会带来变化 但是... It'll make a difference, sure, but...
这已经很不错了 That's good enough.
你是如此接近完成你的住院期 You are so close to finishing your residency.
再过一年 你就可以去你想去的地方 One more year, and you can go wherever you want.
格拉斯曼医生 Dr. Glassman,
朴 Park,
林 他们已经撑我很多次了 Lim, they've stood up for me so many times.
你已经撑我很多次 You've stood up for me so many times.
现在我想为你们所有人站出来 Now I want to stand up for all of you.
好的 Okay.
好吧 Okay,
你能取笑我的胡子或我的眼袋或任何东西吗？ can you make fun of my beard or my eye bags or anything?
我讨厌这样 I hate this.
我说过多少次 How many times did I say
我不想卷入莎伦的事情中？ I didn't want to get involved in the Salen stuff?
但你仍然继续推动 But you still kept pushing.
我想让你站在我这边 I wanted you on my side.
你表现得好像我很害怕打架 You act like I'm scared of a fight.
我是一名黑人妇女 I'm a Black woman
在全国顶尖的外科住院医生中工作 in one of the top surgical residencies in the country.
你知道我是如何努力奋斗才来到这里的吗？ Do you know how hard I had to fight to be here?
我没有像你那样的奢侈 I don't have the same luxury as you do.
我并不害怕 I'm not scared.
我已经筋疲力尽了 I'm exhausted.
我从未这样想过 I never thought of it that way.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
谢谢你 Thank you.
而且我想我知道格蕾丝是为谁而战 And I think I know who Grace is fighting for.
她说她没有任何自己的孩子 She said she didn't have any children of her own.
但你必须在成为代孕者之前已经生过孩子 But you had to have given birth before you became a surrogate.
我们知道威廉的情况 We know what happened to Willem.
这不是你的错 It wasn't your fault.
什么样的母亲会在操场上失去孩子的踪迹？ What kind of a mother loses track of her baby at a playground?
一个 19 岁的年轻人 A 19-year-old.
谁被压倒了 Who's overwhelmed.
我并没有被压倒 I wasn't overwhelmed.
我没有注意到 I wasn't paying attention.
我在电话里和我的男朋友争吵 I was arguing on the phone with my boyfriend.
而我转身...我转过身去 And I turned... I turned my back.
撞击声是如此之大 The crash was so loud.
所以现在 So now,
我把孩子送给那些真正值得拥有的人 I give babies to people who actually deserve them.
杀死自己 Killing yourself
不会把威廉带回来 won't bring Willem back.
它可以让另一个婴儿活下去 It'll let another baby live.
你有价值 You have value,
不仅仅是在你所带的孩子身上 not just in the children you carry.
威廉死后 我失去了自我 I lost myself when Willem died.
这就是让我回来的原因 This is what brought me back.
这是唯一对我有意义的事情 It is the only thing that means anything to me.
你太自私了 You're being selfish.
这不仅仅是关于你 This isn't just about you.
这也是关于阿曼达 It's also about Amanda,
你的朋友 他爱你 your friend, who loves you.
我在努力帮助她... I'm trying to help her...
不 你没有听她的话 No. You're not listening to her.
她不希望她孩子的代价是你的生命 She does not want the price of her child to be your life.
你不一定要终止 You don't have to terminate.
就让我们做膀胱镜手术吧 Just let us do the cystoscopic surgery.
它可以让阿曼达拥有她的孩子... It could let Amanda have her baby...
和你在她的生活中 and you in her life.
请给我一分钟时间 Minute, please.
我很抱歉 那是没有必要的 I'm sorry. That was unnecessary.
我很遗憾事情这样结束 I'm sorry this is how it ended.
我们还没有完成 We're not done yet.
她会摧毁你 She'll destroy you.
只有当你让她这样做的时候 Only if you let her.
你认为我控制了莎伦 因为我们在约会？ You think I control Salen, because we're dating?
这真是疯了 而且有点性别歧视 That's insane and a little sexist.
忘记控制 Forget control.
表明立场如何？ How about taking a stand?
这就是我一直在做的事情 That's what I've been doing
并将继续从内部进行 and will continue to do from the inside.
你本可以和我一起工作 把事情做对 You could've worked with me to make things right.
而不是你把大楼烧成灰烬 Instead, you had to burn the building down.
她点起的火把 She lit the match.
你是知道的 You know that.
我觉得有点恶心 I feel a little sick.
这可能是由于 昂 自身免疫的事情吗？ Could this be 'cause of the, um, autoimmune thing?
这是不可能的 That's unlikely.
你的眼睛有黄疸病 Your eyes are jaundiced.
这代表是你的肝脏 Which means it is your liver.
我需要你做一个全身 PET、CT 扫描 I will need you to do a full-body PET, CT scan.
好的 Okay.
还有你 也是如此 And you, as well.
好了 尼拉 我们都完成了 Okay, Nira, we're all done.
我很高兴我让你来做了检查 I'm glad I had you come in for a check-up.
你的视力实际上有了一些提高 Your vision's actually improved a bit.
你有 53% 的左侧周边区域 You have 53% of your left peripheral field.
这很好 That's great.
你 呃 这些天过得怎么样？ How are you, uh, doing these days?
我不能开车 我丢了东西 I can't drive. I lose things.
我不得不去公司做兼职 I had to go part-time at the company.
它完全改变了我的生活 It completely changed my life.
我很抱歉 I'm so sorry.
不 问题是 它需要改变 No, the thing is, it needed changing.
我当时每周工作七天 I was working seven days a week.
我的伴侣和我即将分开 My partner and I were about to separate.
我在看着我的儿子长大 I was watching my son grow up
通过在办公室发给我的视讯 through videos sent to me at the office.
现在... Now...
我走路送我的孩子上学 I walk my kid to school.
我的关系处于一个很好的位置 My relationship is in a great place.
我比多年前更快乐了 I'm happier than I've been in years.
它提醒了我什么是重要的 It reminded me what was important.
你有肝癌 You have liver cancer.
你的症状是来自副肿瘤综合症 Your symptoms were from a paraneoplastic syndrome.
肿瘤使你的免疫系统处于超负荷运转状态 The tumor put your immune system in overdrive.
它开始攻击无关的器官 It started attacking unrelated organs.
我让他得了癌症吗？ D-Did I give him cancer?
是的 Yes.
在你捐赠的肺叶中可能有一个微小的病变 There was probably a microscopic lesion in the lobe you donated.
但这是对你有利的 But it was to your benefit.
你的扫描结果是干净的 Your scans are clean.
那么 下一步是什么？ So what's next?
手术？ Surgery?
它已经转移了 It's metastasized.
我们可以切除最大的肿瘤 We can resect the largest tumor
并对其他一些部分进行化疗栓塞 and chemo-embolize some others.
这将使你多出几个月的时间 That'll give you a few additional months.
几个月？ Months?
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
莎伦会解雇你 然后公开找你麻烦 Salen's gonna fire you and then come after you publicly.
我不在意 I don't care.
事实上 你应该在意 肖恩 Well, you should care, Shaun.
想一想她要用什么 Think about what she's gonna use.
你在医院里的爆发 你的低分数 Your outbursts in the hospital, your low scores,
护士对你的投诉... the complaint the nurse made against you...
我是一个好的外科医生 I am a good surgeon.
我不相信我再也不会工作了 I don't believe I'll never work again.
你是一个优秀的外科医生 You're an excellent surgeon,
肖恩 这就是问题的关键 Shaun. That's the point.
你不能冒这个险 You can't risk that.
但你能吗？ But you can?
莉亚可以？林医生可以吗？ Lea can? Dr. Lim can?
是的 是的 是的 Yes, yes, yes.
我们可以 你是个例外 We can. You're exceptional.
你所取得的成就是了不起的 What you've accomplished is remarkable.
我们不能冒这个险 We can't risk that.
这是我的决定 This is my decision.
我是一个成年人 格拉斯曼医生 I'm an adult, Dr. Glassman.
如果你不是外科医生 你能做什么？ What are you gonna do if you're not a surgeon?
这一直是最重要的事情 That's always been what's most important.
这不是对我最重要的东西 It's not what's most important to me.
现在不一样了 Not anymore.
如果我从医院失去了你 If I lose you from the hospital,
如我失去了林医生、朴医生 和莉亚 if I lose Dr. Lim and Dr. Park and Lea,
我不想再在那里工作了 I don't want to work there anymore.
好的 Okay.
让我们把这个演讲稿写给养老基金 Let's write that speech to the Pension Fund.
我将独自做到这一点 I will do that alone.
你在我的订婚派对上的演讲很糟糕 Your speech at my engagement party was terrible.
切割环 Cutting loop.
将肿瘤从膀胱壁上进一步剥离 Debulking further tumor from the bladder wall.
我看到更深的肿瘤碎片 I see the deeper tumor fragment.
我们有大量的出血 We've got significant bleeding.
加大灌力 Increasing irrigation.
血压在下降 宝宝也出现了胎儿窘迫 BP's dropping, and baby's in fetal distress, too.
尝试在肿瘤表面进行双极烧灼 Try bipolar cautery on the tumor surface.
没有用 It's not working.
如果我们不能控制这一点 If we can't control this,
我们就会失去他们两个 we're going to lose them both.
得把她开启 Got to open her up.
心脏和肺部听起来不错 Heart and lungs sound good.
我们已获准进行手术 We're cleared for surgery.
你有什么问题吗？ Do you have any questions?
如果这能让我多活几个月 我就全身心投入 If it gives me a couple more months, I'm all in.
多姆 这将会很顺利 Dom, this'll go great.
然后亚历克莎和宝宝明天就到了 And then Alexa and the baby arrive tomorrow.
在我回国之前 我们会有一个很棒的几天 We're gonna have an awesome few days before I head back home.
等等 我是... Wait, I'm...
我很抱歉 莱 I'm so sorry, Ry.
在我被欺负的时候 你站出来为我说话 You stood up for me when I was being bullied.
当我的婚姻失败时 你接纳了我 You took me in when my marriage failed.
我有一次想救你... I tried to save you one time...
而我杀了你 and I killed you.
多姆... Dom...
你多给了我八个月的时间 You gave me eight more months.
我看到中部的树叶变了森林 I got to see the leaves turn in Central Park.
我得看着我妻子分娩 I got to watch my wife give birth.
我还能抱着我的宝贝女儿 And I got to hold my baby girl.
你将成为世界上最好的父亲 Who you're gonna be the world's best godfather to.
否则我就回来纠缠你 Or I'll come back and haunt you.
我保证我会的 I promise I will.
妈妈的平均动脉压是 50 Mom's mean arterial pressure's 50.
肿瘤粘在子宫上了 The tumor's stuck to the uterus.
我们需要做一个紧急子宫切除术 We need to do an emergency hysterectomy.
还有时间 There's still time.
她会大出血 我们必须取走她的子宫 She's going to bleed out. We have to take her uterus.
S-浆膜下肌瘤也是粘在一起了 S-Subserosal fibroids are adherent, too.
如果我们像这样对待肿瘤呢？ What if we treat the tumor like that?
深入到肿瘤平面 Get deep to the tumor plane,
从源头上制止出血 stop the bleeding at its source.
对妈妈好 对宝宝不好 Good for mom, not for baby.
我们可以关闭子宫壁 We could close the uterine wall
用三层的 3-0 缝合线 with three layered 3-0 sutures.
这可以保证婴儿的安全 That could keep the baby safe.
是的 Yeah.
你们两个人都想得很好 Good thinking, both of you.
让我们把它完成 肌瘤切除术的剪刀 Let's get it done. Myomectomy scissors.
我将公开尼拉的治疗情况 I'm gonna go public about Nira's treatment
以及莎伦在其中扮演的角色 and the role Salen played in it.
它应该给人留下深刻的印像 It should make a big impression
对养恤基金的董事 on the Pension Fund's directors.
这可能会对你的职业生涯产生真正的影响 That could have real repercussions for your career.
我必须把这件事做对 I have to make this right.
我不确定你可以 I'm not sure you can.
但这是朝着正确方向迈出的一步 But it's a step in the right direction.
养老基金年度会议的发言人名单 Speakers list for the Pension Fund's annual meeting.
格拉斯曼 林 这几乎是一个惊喜 Glassman, Lim, that's hardly a surprise.
莫菲?沃克?朴和莱兹尼克 Murphy? Wolke? Park and Reznick.
手术顺利吗？ Surgery go okay?
那些在养老金会议上发言的医生 Those doctors speaking out at the Pension Meeting,
我认为他们是对的 I think they're right.
我们应该现在就去和他们见面 We should go meet with them right now.
我不会再雇用他们了 I'm not hiring them back.
至少要听他们说完 At least hear them out,
他们的关注 他们的建议 their concerns, their suggestions.
让我们想出一些折衷办法 Let's come up with some compromises,
让他们同意不参加会议 get them to agree to not be at the meeting.
马库斯 你真是太天真了 Marcus, you're being incredibly naive.
你可能会失去 You may lose.
这是有可能的 It's possible.
你会失去比这家医院更多的东西 You'll lose more than this hospital.
我需要去为今晚做准备 I need to go get ready for tonight.
你的胡须与你的眼袋相配 Your beard matches your eye bags.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
这是什么？ What is this?
奥普研究 Oppo research.
哦 马库斯... Oh, Marcus...
你认为你这里有什么？ What do you think you have here?
我取消了去卡波的旅行 I wrote off a trip to Cabo,
和一个州参议员... had an affair with a state senator...
反对派对我进行研究 Oppo research on me.
我犯过错误 个人的 职业的 它们都在那里 I've made mistakes, personally, professionally. They're all there.
如果你要通过这个交易 If you're gonna go through with this deal,
你将不得不摧毁我 you're gonna have to destroy me.
走了 Walk away.
你有充分的理由不想要这笔交易 You have every reason to not want this deal.
董事会不会和你争论 The Board will not fight you.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
我也是 Me too.
嗯... Well...
祝你好运 Good luck.
因为现在这都是你的问题 'Cause now this is all your problem.
我今晚要睡在我的地方 I'm gonna sleep at my place tonight.
好的 Okay.
你把这个发给了尼拉？ You sent this to Nira?
嗯 嗯 Mm-hmm.
这是对不当行为的承认 This is an admission of misconduct.
嗯 你了解我 Well, you know me.
不成功就成仁 Go big or go home.
我希望你做这一切不是为了我 I hope you didn't do all this for me.
没有 No.
我这样做是因为和你在一起时我是谁 I did this because of who I am when I'm with you.
BGM: Breathe again (Acoustic) by Joy Oladokun
♪ 恶魔徘徊于我家的地下室 ♪ ♪ The Devil's in the basement in my home ♪
♪ 一段楼梯不过是咫尺的距离 ♪ ♪ A flight of stairs is way too close ♪
♪ 当我行单只影时 他向我靠近 ♪ ♪ He comes for me when I'm alone ♪
♪ 向我索要我未曾欠下的债 ♪ ♪ Collecting debts that I don't owe ♪
♪ 我是否在寻找重获新生的机会 ♪ ♪ Am I looking for revival? ♪
♪ 我是否背负着他人的罪孽 ♪ ♪ Am I dressed in other's sin? ♪
♪ 屏住呼吸 直到我坦白真相 ♪ ♪ Hold my breath until I'm honest ♪
♪ 我能否再次呼吸 ♪ ♪ Will I ever breathe again? ♪
♪ 当世界让我不堪重负时 ♪ ♪ When the world's so heavy I can't stand ♪
♪ 我闭上双眼 重新开始 ♪ ♪ I close my eyes and start again ♪
♪ 尽管我的心捧在我的手中 ♪ ♪ Though my heart is in my hands ♪
♪ 可我不会一蹶不振 ♪ ♪ I won't break ♪
♪ 给予我改变现状的信念 ♪ ♪ Give me faith to bend ♪
♪ 我是否在寻找重获新生的机会 ♪ ♪ Am I looking for revival? ♪
♪ 我是否背负着他人的罪孽 ♪ ♪ Am I dressed in other's sin? ♪
♪ 我是否在寻找重获新生的机会 ♪ ♪ Am I looking for revival? ♪
♪ 我是否背负着他人的罪孽 ♪ ♪ Am I dressed in other's sin? ♪
♪ 屏住呼吸 直到我坦白真相 ♪ ♪ Hold my breath until I'm honest ♪
♪ 我能否再次呼吸 ♪ ♪ Will I ever breathe again? ♪